Hi, my name is Lorraine Nelson. I feel very privileged to meet you and to share with you a little more about my journey.
I am a daughter of the Most High King, created for a time such as this!
A few years back, God spoke to my heart! Loud and clear… ”Lorraine, share your story! Not for your own gain, but for MY GLORY!!!!”
It might not be much different from yours, but it makes my heart pound 100 times faster. And in sharing it with you, I believe God will touch your heart in the same way He touched mine. That He would stir the desire in your heart of knowing Him more!!!
This handwritten story, which started out as a blog to inspire women.
So let’s begin at the beginning.
Although I am a VERY positive, loving and happy person and I truly love life, I have NOT always loved myself!
And this is my testimony to you…
From my earliest remembrance, I felt that I wasn’t good enough, feminine enough or pretty enough. Looking back through my childhood photos, I was actually a very cute little girl. However, when we feel ugly, the mirror on the wall somehow bypasses the reflection in the glass and goes right to the heart. (Ouch!) And yet, feeling like this about myself, the King spied me in the fields and wooed me. “Lorraine, YOU are fearfully and wonderfully made!” Psalm 139:14
The greatest struggle in my life soon became my greatest fall. I had a “Silent Hunger”.
My search for significance, made me search in the darkest valleys of life! These valleys made me fall very hard and very unexpectedly! It bruised me in ways I never thought I could get hurt. I’ve hurt myself, I’ve hurt my husband and I’ve disappointed my Creator! I placed my opinion of myself over the opinion of my Father – which is none other than pride. My struggle became my idol. “Don’t be conceited, sure of your own wisdom. Instead, trust and reverence the Lord, and turn your back on evil; when you do that, then you will be given renewed health and vitality.” Proverbs 3:8
Although I gave my life to Jesus in the 9th Grade, the enemy wanted me not to see what God saw in me! I still went through many trials, many heartaches and many lessons, through which God pursued my heart and renewed my identity. An identity rooted in His identity! Captivated by His love!
It was in this very darkest of pain and heaviness of guilt, the reality of what I have done, that made me turn to God for complete healing. For complete deliverance and for complete restoration! “…and call on me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you will honour me.” Psalm 50:15
I realized that NOTHING that I did, or could do, could ever heal or complete me in the way that He could. No pill, no doctor, no compliment, no amount of attention, no diet, no exercise, no formula… NOTHING! My best effort, will never be enough! Only He can do it! “To Israel the Lord says, I am your God; I will gather your descendants; beside me there is NO Saviour;” Isaiah 43:10b Being made whole again, being healed from the inside out – that is what He wanted to do for me!! That is what He wants to do for you!
I had to let God replace the lies with the truth, I had to let Him renew my mind. “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.” Romans 12:2 I had to let go of my pre-conceived ideas, I had to let go of what I “thought” and make space to FEEL – space for the spirit of God to lead me to the truth. “But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all the truth.” John 16:13
And I had to be patient!
Because in His perfect will, He also has perfect timing!
“Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.” 1 Peter 5:6
Today I can DECLARE that He is the Lover of my soul! He has captured my heart, and healed my most inner being! “You have turned my mourning into joyful dancing. You have taken away my clothes of mourning and clothed me with joy!” Psalm 30:11
He brought me back to a place where He is my only desire, my first love, my source of joy! I am His BRIDE!! Living a life of abundance is what He has called me to do. Being properly aware of His grace, His favour, and His joy!
“She is worth far more than rubies. Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value. She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life. Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised. Proverbs 31:30
I first handily experienced God’s healing and restoration in my life! By the power of His blood! He broke my chains! He has overcome! I cannot keep quiet, I cannot! I must proclaim! I was dead in the grave, I was covered in sin and shame. I heard Mercy call my name! He rolled the stone away! Because He lives, every fear is gone! I know He holds my life, my future in His hands!
AMEN! I’m alive, I’m ALIVE!
Let my song join the one that never ends!
BECAUSE HE LIVES!!!
Here in the power of Christ I stand!
I just recently added together all the bits and ends to what my name really means, and this completely overwhelmed me! How precious is Your ways Lord!
The definition of my name is:
Joy, Gladness and a Source of Joy.
Being Cheerful and a Calm Delight.
“You have turned my mourning into joyful dancing. You have taken away my clothes of mourning and clothed me with joy!” Psalm 30:11
The promise to my name is:
She represents a famous warrior of the Lord. She brings glory to God.
But the Lord is with me like a mighty warrior; so my persecutors will stumble and not prevail. They will fail and be thoroughly disgraced; their dishonour will never be forgotten. Jeremiah 20:11
I want nothing than to know You and to be with You my God!
You are holy, You are worthy!
And with everything within me, I will worship you my God!